Maybe... It’s Happiness :)

Maybe... It’s Happiness :)
by Marie Jeddah B. Legaspi

Questions boggle my mind... they echoed to my big, rounded ears; they whispered to my soul-

When I was asked,

What is it about giggling in the middle of the grassy area on campus with your friends that makes you feel glad? Is it because of corny jokes they cracked? Homeworks, all left undone? When you sit there, on your favorite spot, and a gentle wind suddenly touches your face, and you lay your head back down and close your eyes towards the glistening ray of sunlight, do you feel sleepy? What gives you serenity that lets you relax (almost) beyond heavy school works? Is that your happy face?

What is your initial reaction when you noticed him noticing you? Felt awkward? Did you throw him your sweetest smile? Did you utter him words you long to say? Or did you look him on his eyes then suddenly divert your attention away? Are you optimistic that same things will happen tomorrow? ...the next days? Does it gives you exultant feeling of joy?

How does it feel to see him wraps his arms to her but looks back to see if you’re staring? Do you let him know your watching? How does it feel to see him locks his fingers on her hands? Are you wishing it was your palms? Are you really seeing? Or, do you feel contented – assured that he is happy while you drown into tears? Is it self-sacrificing satisfaction?

How did you feel when you wake up in the morning and see your mom prepared your breakfast? That soft and fluffy, warm pan de sal freshly-baked (actually, freshly bought from bakery :D) with love, the hot choco sweetened by thoughtfulness – does it taste good? Did you listen to what your papa says? When he is encouraging, uplifting your weakening faith to go for it? You believed him? Does it make you feel comfortable? Have you taken your one on one conversation with your brother while he’s teary-eyed discussing his latest heart break? Felt happy for him? Do you help him reach for another bottle of cold beer he hid on the refrigerator? Are you of great pleasure they were your home? So you think you can make all of them wear a smile?

Why did you murmur no? Why is it a yes? Do you speak up for yourself? Or do you feel in behalf of others? Silence – love it or hate it? Do you listen to music while running over piles of paper works? What’s the best vacation you ever had? With whom? Want to go there again? Why do you wear flip-flops when you go to school? Does it make you comfy? You think the color suits you? Do you walk with an umbrella on a rainy day? Have you tried bathing in the rain, soothing your senses with downpour of heaven's tears?

I say, the craziest thing in the world is to live. Most people exist... that’s all. I'm not sure, but, I was thinking if; is it just a matter of usual felicity?

...and still could not find answers.

-THE END :)